Okay, so I weighed myself this morning (having not 'gone' if you see what I mean any time yesterday). 230.0 Two-thirty-fucking-pounds. Exactly the same as yesterday. I was so desperate to drop into the 220's. I would have been happy with 0.1 loss but, No. Didn't get it. Bugger.
I did zumba this morning on an empty stomach after taking some diet pills, I'm hoping that will drop me into the 220's tomorrow.
Today at 2pm I have an appointment to have an eating disorder assessment with a trained specialist. It will be interesting to see what his view is of my problems. I'm not sure I want to totally recover, I'm not sure if I can. I need to be thin again but I don't want to do it by bingeing and purging, I just want to restrict.
It is soooo cold right now. It's about 0 degrees out, which is colder than it has been recently, but I think the drop in temperature will help me burn more calories at rest. Because I'm shivering and my teeth are chattering. I refuse to turn on the central heating.
Any way, I will blog later to chart how the assessment session goes.
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